| Location | Feltham Middx |
| Age | 54 years |
| Cause of Death | Cancer |
| Date of Birth | 14/06/1952 |
| Date of Death | 25/03/2007 |
| Visitors | 1,962 since 22/12/2008 |
| Creator |
MY MUM
ITS FOUR YEARS SINCE MUM PASSED AWAY
THE PAIN,GUILT IS STILL THERE JUST LESS RAW
MUM WAS TOLD SHE HAD CANCER AND SHE WENT INTO "FIGHT MODE" SHE GAVE IT ALL SHE COULD AND THEN SOME.. I KNEW SHE WAS SCARED BUT TO PROTECT OTHERS SHE NEVER SHOWED ANY TEARS OR SPOKE ABOUT CERTAIN THINGS.
MUM WAS RESPONDING TO THE TREATMENT,ALTHOUGH IT WASNT GOING TO DO CURE JUST GIVE TIME,BUT IN JAN 2007 I NOTICED MUM WAS DIFFERENT,STRANGE...AND AFTER GOING WITH HER IN A AMBERLANCE I WAS TOLD IT WAS IN THE BRAIN...
MUM WAS ASKED IF SHE WANTED A OP,WHERE THEY COULD EASE THE PRESSURE ON HER BRAIN,MUM BEING CONFUSSED SAID YES.. NO NO NO,YES I WANTED MY MUM TO BE HERE FOREVER,ID HAVE SWAPPED PLACES WITH HER IN A HEARTBEAT BUT TO DO THAT FOR 2 WEEKS EXTRA...NO
MUM WENT TO A HOSPICE WHERE SHE STAYED FOR 3 WEEKS,2 WEEKS LONGER THAN THEY SAID.
HER LAST NIGHT I STAYED WITH HER,LAYING ON THE BED AND IN THE NIGHT MUM CALLED ME FOR A DRINK,GETTING THE WRONG ONE MUM CALLED ME A SILLY COW,AND SMILED,I WATCHED MUM ALL NIGHT
WHEN IT CAME TO THE NURSES WASHING HER I TOOK A WALK AROUND THE HOSPICE,RETURNING 30 MINS LATER I WAS TOLD TO PHONE WHO WAS NEEDED
IT WAS THEN I REALISED THAT MUM WAS GOING TO LEAVE ME
EVERYONE WHO SHOULD BE THERE WAS,BUT OTHERS WERE ALSO THERE WHO SHOULDNT HAVE BEEN,MY NAN GOT THERE 40 MIN BEFORE MUM DIED,
THE RADIO WAS ON AND MUMS FAV SONG FROM THE FOUR TOPS CAME ON FOLLOWED BY JAMES MORRISONS YOU GIVE ME SOMETHING,WHEN THAT SONG STAYED MUM WHO HAD NOT OPENED HER EYES SINCE SHE WANTED A DRINK TURNED TO ME AND SHE WAS GONE.......WHY WHY WHY
MUM ...MY MUM WAS EVERYTHING TO ME,AND LIFE HASNT BEEN THE SAME SINCE
MUM LEFT BEHIND MANY THAT LOVED HER,HER GRANDSONS CHARLIE AND MASON AND ADAM AND MUM NOW HAS A GRANDAUGHTER WILLOW (MUM LOVED WEEPING WILLOW TREES)
I WISH WILLOW HAD KNOWN HER NANA,
MUM HAD PUT UP WITH ALOT OF ** FROM SOMEONE SHE SHOULD NEVER HHAVE HAD TOO.AND THE GUILT FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO DO MORE WILL LIVE WITH ME UNTILL I DIE
THE ONLY GOOD THING IS SHE DOESNT HAVE TO PUT UP WITH THAT NOW AND IS FREE AND SAFE AND WITH HER MUM
THE TROUBLE IS THEY LEFT ME BEHIND
MUM I LOVED YOU SO SO MUCH AND THANKYOU FOR BEING MY MUM
TO LOVE YOU WAS EASY BUT TO LET YOU GO IMPOSSIBLE XXX
willows first birthday
today is willows first birthday mum
today my little girl is one!!!
and if i could give her anything.........
it would be for her to meet her nanny xxx
you should be here mum xxxx
love u xxx
Hi mum xx
It's gonna be willows 1st birthday on Monday
I can't believe the times gone soo fast
Finally worked out why I've been so ill hopefully
Now with the meds I will feel better soon
I'd give anything for u to be here mum xx
Love u lots xxx
mum
mum i wish you was here,i really miss you x
ive not been well this past week,feel terrible x
we love u xxx
xx
masons first day of s.a.t.s mum and hes getting stressed,but being at the project is helping him,
adam was brave and started a different youth club..knowing no one really and loved it...at leaset its away from school,he hates it and i think i will have to move him,
really thought alot about you today xx
wish you was here xx night night
miss u
mum its me,miss u loads me,we had a royal wedding,nan would have loved it....the dress was beautiful
masons finally got into the project,it seems ok,he went to brentford to walk out with team and hold flag and had to shoot a ball,he looked nervous but enjoyed it,he hasnt been well,sick and tummy ache...
willows a year in 29 days ....
she so reminds me of nan...so many things wish you was here mum xx
id love you see u mum even for a second xxx
april 2011
hiya beautiful,
willows saying nana............
its sooo cute mum....
but why
i love u xxxx
25/03/2011
4 years today you was taken from me/us
times gone by and left you behind
id give anything i have to see you again mum
to hear and see you
this is the first year with willow and you not being here mum,
im still broken hearted
i miss my mum
you know in 3 days its 4 years since i last saw you,and in so many ways it seems like a life time ago,yet others i can close my eyes and see you walking in the kitchen making a cuppa.
i still feel so much guilt mum,time hasnt taken that away,i would give anything to have you back mum,it wasnt your time atall,we have missed out on so so much you not being here,your boys have missed out on having you and willow never ever got to know you mum,she would have adoured you mum,she needs you and so do i.
i know how much i needed you mum,that its very hard having willow and not you!its also very lonely
friday is going to be bad mum but the tablets do help and like the last 3 i have to deal with it and get on.but its strange how friday will come and no one remembers mum,and even if some know its no biggue
i have never got over you going mum,yes things/years have passed,and im in a better place than i have been but.....i havent been able to scatter your ashes under the tree,i cant and i will try,only because i know thats what you wanted,but im not ready,yours and nans are in my room.
i love you mum miss you more than you could ever know x
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